Life...life as I've always known it...ends here.  Tomorrow, a little after noon, I am going to be moved out of my house and putting things into my first ever college dorm.  It's sad; I'll never live at home again, (except for occasional weekends, holidays, and perhaps a summer).

Also, as it happens, not a single one of my friends (anywhere) is going off to college this semester!  My two best friends are entering senior year of highschool; two others are staying in town for community college courses; another is doing a Bible school thing for a year; and the list goes on....  I'm the ONLY ONE in ALL of my groups of friends who's going off.  ...It's been kind of lonely.  No one here to commiserate with.

And then, to make matters worse, I've been paired with a sophomore roommate.  Even my roommate isn't in the same boat as me!

Really, I don't mean to be such a baby about this, but I feel completely alone.  It kind of sucks.  I'm moving away from my life, and it feels like everyone I care about is just staying here, going on with the life we used to share together.  I'm leaving everthing I love behind to go off to some strange new world and.... *sigh*  Sorry.  I should stop whining.

I'm not going to whine.

I think I have everything packed.  I hope so...  I move out tomorrow morning, arrive around noon, settle in.

My parents are going on a cruise...  They'll be gone during my first few days of classes.  I can't call home and tell my mom about my day.  (At least no one meant for that to happen; the scheduling was a last-minute change on their part, and they would have had to cancel if they didn't pick this date.  And besides, it's their 30th anniversary; they deserve a vacation.)

I don't really want to move out...  I love life here.  I'm not going to get to watch my youngest sister grow up!  I won't be in the house everyday when she creates some random masterpiece out of wood anymore or needs help deciding how to move the furniture in her bedroom!  My other younger sis can't come to my room and rant about the latest fanfic she's read.  We can't watch old tv episodes of shows we used to be (and still are) addicted to!

I'm not ready to let go.  But I have to...

I'll try to update sometime soon.  To let you know I haven't fallen into depression or decided I couldnt' handle college...

Laura